Consistency has been a theme that has continued to come up for me recently, with instructors, horses, bodywork clients, and in my personal life.
Consistency is not just something I didn’t have, it’s something that I was actively fighting for a long time. When I had to enroll in a program that was largely based in or required a lot of consistency, I balked, and tried to put in as much variety as possible.
Recently I’m finding value in consistency–for growth, stability, balance, wellness, efficiency, and for patterns.
Patterns are developed for a reason. Methods of bodywork, horsemanship, or riding often use patterns for teaching, developing, or balancing. They are crafted over time for a specific purpose. Somewhere along the way I became quite convinced that everyone’s method (even those I highly respected) absolutely needed to be changed. While I still believe that everything can be improved upon, I was often challenging and fighting against fundamental patterns which worked really well.
I’m especially thinking of my somatics (human and equine) practice here. Thomas and Eleanor Hanna didn’t just randomly decide to put a bunch of movements together in a random way or random order. I’m just starting to get an inkling of understanding of how each movement pattern is truly meant to balance and release someone from a mental-emotional-physical reflex response… and how useful the sequence truly is. It balances the opposing movements in the body, and essentially frees the whole person. I feel like I have a lot of apologies to extend to my Hanna Somatics instructors (or really any instructors)…. Oh what grief I must cause. Or perhaps they just go “silly Kara, she’ll figure it out on her own eventually…” and doodle about their day.
It’s refreshing to find that all the things I’ve learned have meaning.
As I’m attempting to bring more consistency into my life (and sometimes doing a better job than other times) I find that my horses and I are starting to breathe more. We can count on something. I can expect certain things to happen in my day and not be exhausted by constant decision making. I also find that in consistency, things are being built on–they’re developing and improving. My yoga is getting better, my somatics is getting better, my bodywork practice is improving, and my horses are getting a little more clear on some of those things I’ve jumped around with.
I have not at all mastered consistency, or patterns. I have a long way to go. I’m just starting to realize their value and truly appreciate the wisdom others have shared with me for what it is.
For this post, I’d like to extend a special thanks to Carol and to Jillian Kreinbring (who turned my lesson into what I needed–consistency and a dash of humility–instead of what I wanted), and a warm appreciation to all of my instructors–thank you all for your patience with all of us students.